‘Pain is temporary, it may last for a minute, or an hour, or a day, or even a year. But eventually it will subside and something else will take its place. If I quit, however, it lasts forever.’- Lance Armstrong
This is her story.
“I retained in my first year of JC and it was a struggle. Just like everyone else, I had hopes and dreams for the future that holds for me. But it was all too soon before everything came crumbling down. Everyone knew about it. People talked, passed remarks and judged in front of and behind my back. I had to watch all of my closest friends move on without me, and it hurt so much. Even in a crowd, I started to feel so alone. Stepping into school every single day was a struggle, and I felt the need to avoid everyone. Every day that followed seemed so dull because it was too difficult for me to accept my fate amidst dealing with the emotions of disappointing my family and friends. It’s not really one event that gets you, but rather the subtle discrimination that you face every day. What was then an external struggle soon became an internal one. And it gets pretty lonely.”
But she survived another year with the determination that many could see. She gained the respect of those around her and this is how she did it.
“Everyone judges. It’s only human nature. But it’s up to you how you want to deal with it. Taking the negatives to heart will not hurt anyone but yourself. I disciplined myself to fuel all my pain into motivation. From initially motivating myself by wanting to prove others wrong, I realised the importance of proving yourself right. Every time it got tough, I asked myself “What’s the worst that could happen?” and I pushed myself harder. People will always tell you they know how you feel and they understand. It’s never true. How can they completely understand the entirety of my complex emotions? I have learnt so much about myself over the past year and have grown stronger. I’ve learnt to recognise what is important and how to deal with disappointments. I have learnt to love myself because happiness only comes from within. To have a stronger voice and opinion rather than sway with what others say. Remember that there is something to learn from every challenge, and you’ve got to rely on and love yourself enough to face it. Learn to enjoy your own company, because it’s the only thing that truly lasts with you for a lifetime. Find people who surround themselves with positive thoughts, because this positive energy can do wonders. And always remember to spend time reflecting, and tell yourself that you really ought to deserve the best. Love yourself enough to give yourself that.”
She is one of my closest friends and someone very special. I hope her story inspires you if you are in the same boat or feel the same emotions. May you find it within yourself to face each challenging day, with joy.